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Happily we sit, together at last

Never a thought that this wasn't normal

Still my heart sat in your arms

Coated in lies

Ah, a sky held barely together by tape

My core and brain both resembling simple air

swishing through my ears

Please leave me decline my happiness

So I don't have to feel this anymore

Nothing can keep my health in check

I keep seeing you in my heart

The one that caused my pain

Still your gentle voice and touch tricks me to feel happiness

I just wish you were the person you said you were

All the while my heart starts ticking down

Panics and tells me to leave

Hideously twisting my body

Tangling these strings

Can't ignore what I've seen and heard

"Bandage and try to defend"

Yeah i'm trying.

Are these feelings even mine?

Please only help me if you care

It'll be easier to control me

I need a break, a placeholder for me

One that is better and can feel emotion

Yes, i'll be lonely forever